Don't get me wrong
Cos I, I left it all behind
But I don't know where to begin
Or start over again
I finally let go of the trauma I was holding on
And all that matters is the here and now
But where to start?
Another day, another uncertainty
Even with the reassurance
Avoiding conflict at every cost
Another day I'm at a loss
The anxiety resides
Filling corners of my mind
What's normal when I'm upside down?
They'll never understand, never understand
Delve in my mind
Then try saying it's fine
They're my worst critics
Judging every move
Lying ever still
I'm elusive in this hell
Need to rebuild on the remains
Of myself once again
Ignorant to always assume
Your narrow thoughts in full bloom
At an impasse, a full divide
You know nothing so we'll draw the line
Regardless I've stayed true
Never perfect yet I'm still augmenting
Like a tidal wave I've crashed, so withdrawn
Never natured red in tooth and claw
Lying ever still
I'm elusive in this hell
Need to rebuild on the remains
Of myself once again
Lying ever still
I'm elusive in this hell
Need to rebuild on the remains
Of myself once again
Severing ties to all deadweight
Make up for time that's lost
Replace stale air inside my lungs
Remember self care at all costs
Illuminate the dark
Construct what's torn apart
Relentless and unwavering
I won't lose my heart
Crawling out my shell
Still alive, escaped from hell
Standing on solid foundations
I've found myself once again
Once again
And I won't lose my heart
